Well seven weeks down and more thinking but some thoughts too…

• I am excited and happy
• I’m also worried and scared
• I love Ben a lot
• He cares for me a lot more than I ever expected he did or anyone ever could and it still amazes me
• I’m doing the best I can. I’m trying to learn as much as I can but at the end of the day I am still going to make mistakes

That last thought is really important to me. I didn’t really think that people would be negetive or horrible to us in this situation but the people can’t help themselves it is human nature. I just wish I could tell some people that I am trying the best I can and then some. A new parent can’t get everything right. I also wish that people would stop and think whether the comments, judgments or advice that they give is going to help us or whether they are doing it to make themselves feel better.

People have a lot of expectations, especially when it comes to children, about what is right and wrong. I’m sorry for not living up to some peoples expctations. That is their problem, not mine.