Well, it had to happen, I suppose: we had an arguement last night.

Initially it wasn’t about anything much but it quickly bloomed into yelling and storming out. I’m still confused as to why it sparked over and went nova. I keep thinking that, “It wasn’t me”, but actually I think it was. I yelled rather than explained and had I made that little extra effort, the outcome would have been different.

What have I learned from this?

• Being tired increases the chance of making silly mistakes.
• Not everything is the way I see it.
• Sometimes the answer isn’t the answer.

So now I want to patch things up, but in retrospect it would have been simpler to not have made the break in the first place. I knew that already, but it didn’t make a difference this time. Next time I will try to remember that and make a change (for the better).

It also occurs to me that, on our finite time schedule, we’d both better work on this aspect of our relationship as it’s going to be vital to our sanity once the baby is born.

I do hope that this post doesn’t make things worse, I’m pretty sure it will make things initially more difficult, but then I think it will be good for our communication later on. I’m about to find out now, though, so here goes!

I will let Emma have a little more sleep first though. It really does make a difference to both of us.