It has been a long debate inside my little head, long before I got pregnant in the first place, of whether it is possible to achieve all the things you want to do in your life at the time in your life that you want to achieve them.

At the moment I am torn between many things, two of which are the desire to go travelling and the desire to have a baby.

I’m pathetic! If you saw me at the moment you would probably want to slap me I am so disgusting. I have turned into one of those women who can’t walk past a baby (or even baby socks if we really want to get down to it) without making a “Ahhh isn’t it cute!” noise. I am that annoying woman who insists on holding strangers babies at dinner parties and barbeques. When it comes down to it I really just want a baby of my own.

On the other hand though I want to travel. I read lonely planet books like magazines, I envy Sally’s blog of her travels, I constantly put imaginary dates and destinations into internet flight centre search engines. I just want to travel. Throw on a backpack and go and see the world.

But how can I fulfill both desires? The want to have a baby right now and the want to see the world right now.

When it comes down to it really I’m just impatient and I want everything now. Before babies and before travelling I need to first learn patience.