Every now and then I like to think that I am really organized and try to make some sort of plan for my life, or at least the next little bit of my life. It looks like a really good idea on paper and I think I am super awesome for having figured out the secret to happy living but when I try to apply it to real life situations suddenly everything goes askew. I get so caught up in the first thing that goes wrong that I end up throwing the plan out the window completely and can’t move past the sense of failure.

Well that time has come again!

Post wedding I have decided to try and figure out some sort of plan again. I have made a budget of all my income and out-goings and was surprised to find I should actually have a fair bit of money left over at the end of each pay, whereas before I was desperately living from pay-check to pay-check. I have also made a list of things I would like to have achieved or at least be on the way to achieving by the end of the year, personal goals such as auditioning for a new show, finish writing one of my own shows, and paying off my astronomical personal loan.

There will be a lot of work involved, I’m not denying that. Some of my goals will take a little longer than others and some I know I will struggle to achieve but I am going to try something different this time around. I am not going to give up at the first sign of failure, I am going to look for the positive side of things. I am going to put everything I can into these goals. From the simple ones of riding to school everyday, to the difficult ones of putting on a full scale production, I am not going to give up at the first sign of difficulty. If I don’t believe in myself then how can I expect anyone else to. If this is what I want to do then I have to do it, no one else is going to do  it for me.

As cliché as it sounds, I am going to think positively and believe in myself.

The results may not be that noticeable at first but even today I feel better for having got out of bed, stopped complaining about how much I hate school and got on with something productive.

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