Archive for February, 2012
Diet plan
Ben and I started a new diet yesterday. Ben has done it before and lost a lot of unwanted weight on it. I wasn’t all that committed last time and gave up after a day when I realised I couldn’t cut the cord with cheese and bread just yet. This time around though, I read up on the literature (4-hour body) and made some practise meals so I could see how easy it was to keep to the strict eating plan without compromising on taste. I bought useful ingredients and removed temptations from the pantry. Sunday morning came and I was set to succeed!
So far it has been the best decision I have ever made. I’ve only been doing it for two days, I know, but I feel a lot more positive not only about what I am eating and how I look but also my ability to cook good healthy meals. In the past I have only really eaten what was easy, usually meat and two veg!
This is what we had for dinner last night:
Three bean mix, herbed chicken strips and mixed steamed vegetables. In all it took about ten minutes preparation and about ten minutes cooking time. Not only was it easy to make and stuck to the diet but it was delicious and I enjoyed cooking it!
I am proud of what I have done in just two days.
1. I have committed myself to changing my lifestyle to make myself a happier and healthier human being.
2. I haven’t given in to stupid excuses or given up before I started. Instead I made it so it was impossible for me to fail (removing temptation and practising before committing)
3. I have learnt new skills
4. I have found long lost energy and put it to good use
In short I am really proud of my turnaround. I have made a commitment and I am sticking to it.
I feel old. I know I’m not but I definitely feel it. I’m 28 years old and I am starting university today. I am going to be surrounded by 17 and 18 year olds who are going to University for the first time. Some of them will probably be in my course. That is a ten-year difference and for some stupid reason it makes me feel like I am too old to be going after my dream and studying singing.
I also feel old because my friends are suddenly going through that stage of getting married and having kids. I’m married but kids are a few years off for me, or at least I think so. There are other things I want and need to do before I can effectively dedicate my time to a tiny human being. A part of me though is aware that if I want to have children this is probably the best time for it. If I wait too long I will simply be too old.
It’s ridiculous I know, but there is no denying the feeling is there. I look back on some of the choices I have made in my life and wish I had taken a different path. Then there is that voice that reminds me that if I hadn’t made those choices I wouldn’t have done some wonderful things, like met and married Ben.
Then there is Hazel. She is a 70 something year old who just graduated from university. I wonder if she felt silly or old when she was studying alongside these young kids. I’m sure that in her eyes I too would come under that classification.
Maybe I’m just making excuses to try to get out of actually doing something I want to be doing. My brain does some incredibly stupid things to me some days.
In the meantime I need to just focus on Hazel and realise that just like her age isn’t a barrier if this is really want I want to do, and if I ask myself honestly I know that this is what I want to do.
I logged on today with the intention of writing a post about how confused I am about what I am doing with my life and my singing. This honestly has been plaguing me to no end since I got back from holidays. Before I started writing though I went back and read my post about intentions for this year and realised I had nothing to worry about. I knew where I wanted to be going and what I wanted to be doing. The problem wasn’t that I didn’t know what I was doing but that I was scared of what possibilities may come out of them. I was being lazy about starting because fear was holding me back.
I want to sing.
I want to study.
I want to have a life this year.
I need to keep the small things in mind and not be scared to start on my huge scary and ultimately exciting new life. This year is going to be amazing. I have made that decision, now I need to put it into action!
