Take for example my current predicament. I have been offered a position performing in a children’s show in Singapore. Sounds fantastic right? It is. They pay for accommodation, food, air fares and I get paid per show I perform in. So what is the problem? The contract is only for three weeks, starting on the first of June, which would mean I would have to quit my job teaching at School to be able to take it. I can’t quit my job at School and go to Singapore without having another job lined up right after coming back due to how often and how much I owe on my loans. I’m also supposed to give a terms notice for quitting from a school.

There is also the fact that not only does School offer a steady paycheck but when it comes down to it, it is quite simple work, I plan everything in advance so I don’t have to take anything home, I usually get home by 4pm and when I am being truly honest with myself I do enjoy the work.

I guess it is about being patient and hoping that the opportunity presents itself again even though I really really want to take the job now.

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At the moment I am torn between many things, two of which are the desire to go travelling and the desire to have a baby.

I’m pathetic! If you saw me at the moment you would probably want to slap me I am so disgusting. I have turned into one of those women who can’t walk past a baby (or even baby socks if we really want to get down to it) without making a “Ahhh isn’t it cute!” noise. I am that annoying woman who insists on holding strangers babies at dinner parties and barbeques. When it comes down to it I really just want a baby of my own.

On the other hand though I want to travel. I read lonely planet books like magazines, I envy Sally’s blog of her travels, I constantly put imaginary dates and destinations into internet flight centre search engines. I just want to travel. Throw on a backpack and go and see the world.

But how can I fulfill both desires? The want to have a baby right now and the want to see the world right now.

When it comes down to it really I’m just impatient and I want everything now. Before babies and before travelling I need to first learn patience.