Posts Tagged ‘tired’
Arguing
Well, it had to happen, I suppose: we had an arguement last night.
Initially it wasn’t about anything much but it quickly bloomed into yelling and storming out. I’m still confused as to why it sparked over and went nova. I keep thinking that, “It wasn’t me”, but actually I think it was. I yelled rather than explained and had I made that little extra effort, the outcome would have been different.
What have I learned from this?
- Being tired increases the chance of making silly mistakes.
- Not everything is the way I see it.
- Sometimes the answer isn’t the answer.
So now I want to patch things up, but in retrospect it would have been simpler to not have made the break in the first place. I knew that already, but it didn’t make a difference this time. Next time I will try to remember that and make a change (for the better).
It also occurs to me that, on our finite time schedule, we’d both better work on this aspect of our relationship as it’s going to be vital to our sanity once the baby is born.
I do hope that this post doesn’t make things worse, I’m pretty sure it will make things initially more difficult, but then I think it will be good for our communication later on. I’m about to find out now, though, so here goes!
I will let Emma have a little more sleep first though. It really does make a difference to both of us.
I am tired all the time. I wake up first thing in the morning after having slept for anywhere between 7 and 13 hours. No matter how little or how much sleep I get I am still tired when I wake up. I have breakfast and sit on the couch for half an hour reading a book or watching a TV show and I am still tired. I go to work and am exhausted and ready for a nap by lunchtime. I come home from work and lie on the couch until I end up going to sleep at about 9pm.
What the hell is going on?
I read in the baby book that this is normal but really? This tired. I sometimes think I would feel better if I was at least looking pregnant but there is simply nothing there to warrant this kind of exhaustion. Ben thinks it may have just as much to do with stress and my mind coming to terms with what is going on as it does to do with baby building. Either way I am sick of it.
I’m sick of being tired!
I also got my blood tests back today and (as far as I can tell) everything looks good. I’m also glad I have them now because it gives me an excuse to make an appointment with a new GP. Talking to Ben about it, I was serious when I said I would just walk into GP surgeries and “interview” GP’s.
I know that sounds really strange or even a little elitest but this is my body and my baby. I think I should have a GP who I can trust and who I know I am going to actually want to see, not dread seeing.
